Day 10: Beliefs

This is the trickiest day of all of the days. As you can tell, I have pondered this one for a long time. I was contemplating not even doing the project today. It is 7 pm and I am just now starting my post. Most posts have gone up at 6 am each morning. 

The thing is, I don't really know. It is hard to be an optimist when one day you are buying baby clothes and the next you are in the hospital being induced to give birth to the baby you can't bring home. 

I'm going to start with things I don't believe. We will see where it unravels to from there. 

I don't believe this was "just part of God's plan." 
I don't believe this situation was bestowed upon me because "God only gives to you what you can handle." 
I don't believe this is all easier, you know, since "we are young and can try again. When God says it is our time." 
I don't believe "God needed another angel." 
I don't believe "it was just meant to be this way." 

I try to believe that there is a warm place to welcome every one when their time is up on this earth. 

I hope that family members, who have passed, are there to welcome newly passed family with open arms. 

I pray that this isn't all there is to life. There has to be more. 

I would like to believe Connor is being held by my grandfather, as he held me dearly in this picture. 

It is difficult to believe what you can't feel, see, or hear. 

October is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness month. I'm participating in the Capture Your Grief project. This project was set up by another blogger. It is a way to travel through grief, with others. I will not stress myself out if I don't get every single day. Some days may only be posted here, others only on Facebook, and some on both media outlets. Read more about it at this website.