Saturday, October 4, 2014

Share Walk 2014

Today was a very special day for me. It was one of those mornings when I got to stop everything for a few hours and simply honor Connor. I posted about the Share Walk last year. Here are some pictures from this years walk. 


I am lucky enough to help organize and set up the walk each year. It is truly a fabulous experience. I feel like I am being productive in Connor's name. It gives me a way to physically honor him, helping to arrange this special day for so many families. 


There is a banner each year. Families may write a message. This banner is then used to lead the walk. They are used as decoration in the following years. This was only my second year, but I already enjoyed going back and looking at messages to/about Connor from last years banner. 


We have a balloon release. While I know it isn't the best for the environment, isn't it special and beautiful? 


 I have featured the Angel of Hope on my blog a few times. The walk ends at the Angel, where we read "We Remember" and left carnations on the Angel. 


Seriously, though. The absolutely best part of the day is just the pure feeling of love and support. I felt completely wrapped in it throughout the whole special morning. Thank you to everyone who came to support the walk and/or sent me messages throughout the morning. I am so fortunate to have so many supportive people in my life. 



Friday, August 15, 2014

Insta Friday

It's late and I've had some wine, but I don't want to not post this week's Insta Friday! It has been a very quick, extremely busy week!

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Pinterest Philosopher

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A dear friend recently posted this quote on his business page. You see, he is in the business of grief. He owns a funeral home. I don't know how he deals with it. I don't know how he walks into that business every day knowing he is facing people in the worst times of their lives. He is meant to do it. He is good at it. He is there to comfort, and to say the right things at the right times. I know, because he has been there through my own grief. I will be forever grateful for him. 

This quote meant a lot to me, because it seemed just perfect to describe how I feel. I am a "rememberer." I am the one on this earth who is made to remember Connor. He was a part of me. Who else could remember him better? 

I feel though that sometimes people confuse remembering with obsessing or not "moving on". I hate that phrase moving on by the way. I feel like it was invented to make the grieving feel guilty. Doesn't it just sound awful to "move on"? You can, however, move on and not forget. You can still mention your loved one and be "moving on". 

I feel like I am in a good place. I am in a better place than I ever imagined I could be just 15 months ago. I felt like I could never breath normally again back then. Now, I go weeks without crying. I still remember. I still speak his name. That will never stop. He is and always will be my first born son. 

It just isn't the same. Remembering and being stuck in grief. Please don't assume that just because I mention him or seem down on some days, just because I share articles or speak about breaking the silence "still", that I am stuck in my grief. 

I am growing daily, within this grief that will always be with me. 




Saturday, August 9, 2014

I'll miss you, summer!

I'm mixing it up this week and doing my writer's workshop on Saturday. I have just had a crazy busy week! I was gone every evening. I'm glad to find some time to write a post today and relax. 

I can't say that summer is my favorite season. I prefer the weather of spring. I need the cool breeze. I don't like getting hot and sweaty right after I took a shower. My super pale skin does not appreciate the sun glaring down on it. Even when greased down with sunscreen, I always end up red. 

This summer has been the best one in a while though! The weather has been fabulous most of the time and I had a great summer job. 

Here are six things I will miss about summer: 


Friday, August 8, 2014

Insta Friday

It's that time again! Insta Friday.. what a busy week I've had!


While visiting a friend a few hours away, we ate at this yummy restaurant!

Monday, August 4, 2014

Currently...

This is a post that I did last July and fully intended on repeating it more often than over a year later! Here are some things that are going on in my life currently... 

Friday, August 1, 2014

Insta Friday



I love spoiling Ella. 
While at Petco, I decided she "needed" to try a sampling of these puppy cookies. 



Sunday, July 27, 2014

Pinterest Philosopher

Another oldie making a return. I will search for a quote on Pinterest each week and post it here. Sometimes I will add some writing with it. Sometimes I will just post the image. Either way, I enjoy these quote images. I hope you do too. 



No matter what you are going through. Don't forget to stop every once in a while and consciously turn on that light. 

Friday, July 25, 2014

Insta Friday

It has been nearly a year since I have participated in Insta Friday. I have still followed Life Rearranged on Facebook and the blog itself. I had lost touch with Instagram. I lately found my love for Instagram again, so I decided to jump back into Insta Friday. 

Here is my week in Instagram pictures: 



The weather has been super nice off and on, which is very odd for this time of year. 
On this day, a picnic lunch completed the perfect view and weather.