Friday, August 15, 2014

Insta Friday

It's late and I've had some wine, but I don't want to not post this week's Insta Friday! It has been a very quick, extremely busy week!

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Pinterest Philosopher


A dear friend recently posted this quote on his business page. You see, he is in the business of grief. He owns a funeral home. I don't know how he deals with it. I don't know how he walks into that business every day knowing he is facing people in the worst times of their lives. He is meant to do it. He is good at it. He is there to comfort, and to say the right things at the right times. I know, because he has been there through my own grief. I will be forever grateful for him. 

This quote meant a lot to me, because it seemed just perfect to describe how I feel. I am a "rememberer." I am the one on this earth who is made to remember Connor. He was a part of me. Who else could remember him better? 

I feel though that sometimes people confuse remembering with obsessing or not "moving on". I hate that phrase moving on by the way. I feel like it was invented to make the grieving feel guilty. Doesn't it just sound awful to "move on"? You can, however, move on and not forget. You can still mention your loved one and be "moving on". 

I feel like I am in a good place. I am in a better place than I ever imagined I could be just 15 months ago. I felt like I could never breath normally again back then. Now, I go weeks without crying. I still remember. I still speak his name. That will never stop. He is and always will be my first born son. 

It just isn't the same. Remembering and being stuck in grief. Please don't assume that just because I mention him or seem down on some days, just because I share articles or speak about breaking the silence "still", that I am stuck in my grief. 

I am growing daily, within this grief that will always be with me. 

Saturday, August 9, 2014

I'll miss you, summer!

I'm mixing it up this week and doing my writer's workshop on Saturday. I have just had a crazy busy week! I was gone every evening. I'm glad to find some time to write a post today and relax. 

I can't say that summer is my favorite season. I prefer the weather of spring. I need the cool breeze. I don't like getting hot and sweaty right after I took a shower. My super pale skin does not appreciate the sun glaring down on it. Even when greased down with sunscreen, I always end up red. 

This summer has been the best one in a while though! The weather has been fabulous most of the time and I had a great summer job. 

Here are six things I will miss about summer: 

Friday, August 8, 2014

Insta Friday

It's that time again! Insta Friday.. what a busy week I've had!

While visiting a friend a few hours away, we ate at this yummy restaurant!

Monday, August 4, 2014


This is a post that I did last July and fully intended on repeating it more often than over a year later! Here are some things that are going on in my life currently... 

Friday, August 1, 2014

Insta Friday

I love spoiling Ella. 
While at Petco, I decided she "needed" to try a sampling of these puppy cookies. 

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Pinterest Philosopher

Another oldie making a return. I will search for a quote on Pinterest each week and post it here. Sometimes I will add some writing with it. Sometimes I will just post the image. Either way, I enjoy these quote images. I hope you do too. 

No matter what you are going through. Don't forget to stop every once in a while and consciously turn on that light. 

Friday, July 25, 2014

Insta Friday

It has been nearly a year since I have participated in Insta Friday. I have still followed Life Rearranged on Facebook and the blog itself. I had lost touch with Instagram. I lately found my love for Instagram again, so I decided to jump back into Insta Friday. 

Here is my week in Instagram pictures: 

The weather has been super nice off and on, which is very odd for this time of year. 
On this day, a picnic lunch completed the perfect view and weather.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Something New

I have not done one of Mama Kat's writing workshops in a long time. I figured this week was a perfect time to get back involved with the writing workshop, with my goal to write more.

I chose:
3.) Something new.

I have the perfect inspiration to write a post about something new. This post connects back to another writing workshop assignment. It happened last September: