The days I haven't posted.

These past few days, I have only done Facebook posts of the Capture Your Grief project. A few of them were just a lot less personal. Friday, I was just really busy. I want a full picture of the project on my blog though, so I'm going to go through now and fill in the blanks a bit. 


Day 11: Triggers

Celebrations. Events. 
They get to me a lot. 
It is so obvious he is missing, when everyone else is there.

I'm allowing myself to just skip what hurts. I'm not going to decorate for Christmas this year. I just can't bring myself to do it. I'm not going to send out Christmas cards. Sorry, if you are on my normal list. I usually send out a photo card. I don't even want to make one. 

I still "make" myself go to family birthdays. However, I have driven home from a few of them crying the whole way. I need to allow myself to do what is best for me for a while. If that is not putting up a Christmas tree, so be it. The world will still spin. I guarantee we will all still come through the holidays just fine. And I won't have to look at that cheery decoration daily, when I don't feel like doing so. 

Day 12: Article

Check out this article, over at Still Standing Magazine: 
http://stillstandingmag.com/2013/10/myths-grief-mourning-pregnancy-child-loss/

It is all about myths in grief. People mean the best when they say things, but this article speaks to my heart. Really. Check it out. It speaks volumes about grief. 

Day 13: Book 

I'm not in a place where I have read a book to help deal with my grief. I have a few around the house. I have picked them up a few times. I just can't do it. I am willing to talk about Connor, and his birth. I am willing to hear my friend's speak about their experiences and babies. However, I just can't get myself to read a book about someone random's loss. 

Maybe, I will some day or I may just never find it necessary. Maybe, I will find a book about general grief and read it. I just don't feel the need to do so right now.

I do read a lot of online articles. Particularly, from this website: http://stillstandingmag.com/. They do a lovely job. So, I'm just going to share this instead of a book today. If you or someone you know is hurting. Check this website out. I'm sure it will have some articles that will be relatable or helpful.